Lemurs and Sailing

England and Ireland Watch out I am  on my way just making a stopover at Sandhamn Race week and GotlandRunt for a few days doing some radio and then I am off across the Sea. 

Is a bit tired today after a long night with Youtube two cats and a lovely guy. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t9_5UZtyK10&feature=related

The combination is outstanding Cleese and Lemurs, sometimes it is even who gives me the biggest laugh. 

The end of one is the beginning of another

I have to confess though that there is a empty space in-between that is called reality. When I first got dropped of at my apartment on Thursday I felt totally lonely and life were so sad. Rented a great movie, don’t remember the name but it was a famous photographer that came back after his fathers death to town where he grew up and one thing after the other made him face reality. It is strange how things appears, the movie ended like the butterfly effect with two endings. As then, I liked the none happy ending. I lied in my bed with cheese doodles and chocolate and felt like someone had dragged out the plug and all air went out of me.  And as usually this comes with sleepless nights.

Friday and I were to be at my dad´s job to help out during the day, late night Thursday I realized that I had double booked and were suppose to be at my spiritual mentor at 10.00 on top of that I overslept, bought breakfast at seveneleven and missed the train that only goes every 20 minutes due to construction. What a lovely day !  At least it went from terrible to ok. I got served a barbecue at the night by and with some friends. It made me feel less lonely but still I felt like I had lost something. The last two weeks has been so intense and not only that, but I realized that this is what I want to do, and what I am good at. This thought you might think is a good one, and of course it is but it is also scary because it makes me addicted and forces me to focus so that I can finance it. I have not only discovered a lot on the workside of life but also on the private. And as always when this happens it strikes me like lightening from blue sky and a panic attack rises.

It is good if I stay away form alcohol at this time because then I can take the good thing out of it and with a clear mind let it all sink in and then sort out how to proceed. Like on Friday I get fever and feel low, it is my body’s way of saying slow down. So I did but this time in company of friends and family.

If this intense life is how I want to live my life I have to really value the time in-between and by that value what I do with it such as watch a good movie that I really want to see, do some exercise and meet friends and family not because I should but because I want to.

Since the first night I went to Café Opera with the sailors I have kept up the tempo, and I really asked my self, no actually my mentor asked me, could you not have had the same fun if drinking sparkling water? After a while of thinking I said to my self, I would, and probably in the long run even more fun. I do not regret anything but I have now once again confirmed what I already knew: that my body and mind do not play with alcohol. I have not done any exercise and I have been sloppy with my meals, less herbalife and more bread and vegiburgers, late snack and late breakfast, if any. This makes me week and I fall back into depression. The good thing is htat we don’t talk even close to the ranges that I used to drink before. But still it is too much. It do mess with my brain, senses and feelings in a way that don’t generate anything good. For example I have eaten meat and ice-cream even though I know that my stomach really don’t like it. I am not taking care of my self and living in line with my code of loving kindness in this way not towards my self.

Don’t know how many times I have to go through this but they say that you do it until you get it, and apparently it takes a while. The good side is though that I am far from as down as I used to be. I don’t have so many steps to climb to be back in the game again. Before I were down in the dungeon now I have just fallen down a few steps, and I know how to climb them again. 

all good things comes to an end

I were to buy a puma flip-flops and we, me and anna, had to take a last picture by the boat GreenDragon 

Me, Anna ( a lovely crazy irish girl) and Sara physio for the team GreenDragon, here at Tivoli GrönaLund

THe nigth ended at Café Opera just for me to get up again in the morning to do the last interviews with the skippers before they were leaving the dock for the last leg towards St Petersburg.

Me 07.30 this morning going out live at RadioVolvoOceanRace and Skärgårdsradion with Loogna in the studio.  

"It feels nice that Ericsson leaves by the first, it means that they haven't done so good, Ken Reed says to me in the morning with a big smile on his lips. Its only because i like him so much we keep this in he says. Mange, the skipper at Ericsosn 3 hope to win this leg, then he has won the longest and the shortest leg and "then you are the best", he tells me just before they leave out. 

Puma left as the second last boat to the Drop Kick Myrphys adn Shipping out to Boston. 

It felt said when they played one teamsong after the other, i had a quick comment from the skippers and then they headed out towards the startingline outside of Sandhamn. I soooo want to go to St Petersburg but its not possible, checked up the tickets but they were to expensive. Well I have to be glad for these lovely days. I have learnt a lot and got a few more days planned with Skargardsradion and the Gotland Runt before I will have a holiday and after that I think that my head will be much clearer and that I will know what to do.  I once again have to say that i love to Backpack every day. 

Puma by the starting- line outside of Sandhamn where they entered as winner of leg 9 a few days ago. I

t feels like yesterday and  at the same time as it were a month ago that I first met these boats and the people around them. It has been some intensive days; lot's of job, met a bunch of people, had a blast and been hooked on sailing. 

Last day at Skeppsbron

Tomorrow it´s Sandhamn and the last start in VolvoOceanRace, but before that Eric Gadd tonight and a beer in the warm summer weather, but first a quick stop by at my doctor to do something about my back. 

Just when writing this I saw smoke rise from where the boats are. A orange smoke and a terrible smell filled the air. My colleague Jonas told me that it was the Russian team that fired an flare, it is a part of the personal offshore survival course that all crew- members has to complete so they did before the last leg towards St Petersburg. It is said that the crew mainly are the wet team/shoreteam that are sailing for the final finish in a few days.  The King were having dinner just inside the boat anchored close by. A lot that happens here at Skeppsbron. 

just keeping on

Finished up the whole day of in-port race with doing interviews with the skippers of Eriksson and the winner TelefonicaBlue live out at the RaceVillage, felt cool. As my shoes were wet since the boat-ride I put on my Rubber-boots and they did success at the Café opera later in the night after a few beers at the Puma barge with the GreenDragon guys. Think I looked so strange that people thought I had to be famous in order to wear flowerish rubber-boots, shorts and a Ericsson sailor jacket at the night club. 

More Radio, and more interviews with the worlds top sailors, went back in my restaurant career and back to selling candy, coffee and swipe tables. Done radio in the mornings but I can't do it anymore, I can't be torn apart as it doesn' t make me do anything fully and i want to deliver everything I do with a professionalism. And most of all I have to withdraw the thought of a boyfriend or even a flirt it just makes me loose focus. Or i try to hide behind it, the easy life of having a blast. Tries to take my herbalife but it doesn't work so god for the moment, as soon as I step into the restaurant life I have a drink to much, eat more sugar and less food, feel uncomfortable with haveing working clothes on and looses focus. It just aint worth it!  On top of that I have a cold that takes my energy and it is wrong time in the month. And I also think that I have to sort among people around me, What does everyone wan't ?! What do I want?!

In a movie I watched the other night about a pokerplayer, Lucky You, where his father told him that "You live your life as you should play your cards and play your cards as you should live your life" play safe at the table and dare to take risks in your real life. In the same film they also said that everyone are trying to not feel alone, I think that has to do with the feeling of being a part of something bigger and that in turn are related to feel that your excistence has a meaning, that your life does. We all just have different ways of filling the gap, searching for a strategy to do so or for someone. Is it filling we need or is it acceptance of the black whole or is it that we actually are to find our task, our specific mission in this lifetime and then we feel complete or is it so that we wont feel complete until we decide to do so. 

Team Russia is in Stockholm and might start for the last leg to St Petersburg. 

Tomorrow I will get up around 8 and have a slow morning, with coffee and read the paper. Then hopefully plan my last day with VolvoOceanRace, the start from Sandhamn, maybe do some liveradio from the village about the preparations. Maybe sort out the Russian situation, are they allowed to re-enter the challenge again or not. There is a party tomorrow night might join that and also heard that there is another party for all involved in the VolvoOeanRace Stopover on thursday.  We´ll se, one step at the time. Tomorrow hopefully no Restaurant and some Radio, arrangements and some socializing.  But I have learnt that you can plan but you will never know what happens or who to show up etc... 

Telefonica blue winner

Telefonica Blue in action 

Another day at sea. Got my Herbalife in the morning and a proteinbar on the boat. just before the start of the in-port race at kanholmsfjärden outside Stockholm. 07.30 in the morning the V70 boats left Skeppsbron and 1300 the start signal, a gun shot, went of and the boats worked their way at the line, in order to capture the best position, a very important part in this short but points-loaded race. 

The fleet at kanholmsfjärden

I was a bit said that I couldn't be on one of  the boats during the race, I really enjoyed it when I were a crew-member at GreenDragon. But it is ok to sit next to them as well, to watch the whole fleet come up and around the posts in a speed of 17 knots, to watch their huge sails up and to see them in action to tack in competition is amazing. 

Telefonica blue win the second race and by that the overall of the competition. They are now in position to catch the cat but then Ken Reed on Puma need to be unfortunate and the winds have to blow in  Telefonica blues direction. 

At the finish- line 

Team russia are back in the competition for the last leg, and I want to go to St Petersburg. 

Puma won first in-port race

In-port race Stockholm

It is not over until it is over. It has been a fight for the top three and it's on again as Telefonica Blue passed Skanskobb outside of Sandhamn on midsummer, two days ago which gave them 2 points, with the a container of tools from Ericsson and 24 hours work, the boat did leave the dock at Skeppsbron this morning 07.30 local time and are now on their way to the starting- line. 

Telefonica Blue has a good record of the in-port race and are good sailors on the light winds over Östersjön. If Puma finish sixth place and the same on the race to St Petersburg. It might not be likely as Puma has improved the last legs. But still it will deliver a excited afternoon. 

The race will be sailed at an america's cup race course with two marks, instead of three that is the regular on a olympic course. todays race course are built up as tackleg followed by a downwind, tack and a last downwind towards the finish line. 

I am just leaving RaceVillage and Stockholm behind on a boat with photographers from Spain, france and a film team from Brasil. 

Preparations at Skeppsbron

Micke is preparing the technique for tomorrow

Club Loveboat are to take over Skeppsbron with 80´s 

Race village was a bit hangover this morning since midsummer- party yesterday but that doesn't bring down either the tempo nor the feeling. The dagger- board of Ericsson3 was to be placed, after "cleaned" when I was at the deck, and Telefonica blue are back in the water after reparations. 

I did clean up my self too this morning. There has been some hectic days since the too early finish at Sandhamn.  Intense and filled with adrenaline, wonderful people and a lot of job. I still keep up my back-packing theme in life, and a huge thing with that is to take every moment as it comes in good and bad and also to meet and until next time you bump into each other, because I have realized that some people just don´t leave you in a good sense. And that is what life is about.  

Today all people at the shore, the so called wet team, are preparing the boats for tomorrows in-port race. I'll be there and I will post up-dates every five minute here at my blog. So if you can´t be there I will try to give the feeling of beeing there both at my blog and by reports at the RadioVolvoOceanRace  91.9 

Midsummer at Sandhamn

Got a ride out to Sandhamn with a friend so I thought why not stop by and have  traditional midsummer lunch with my parents; potatoes, herring, bread, cheese and beer. It was a lovely ride out on the motorboat and a tasteful lunch. 

While sitting on the deck, I saw Telefonica blue pass by. That means that they have finished leg 9 and are back in the competition. 

Herbalife Monthly check

Oh my, this wont be good results, I said to Roger when he un-packing the scale that will in a few seconds generate the results of this third month. I have had, as you have seen, a pretty full schedule. This was on sunday bit I haven´t been able to post it until now. 

I took my socks of, stepped up on the scale and grabbed the handles that actually are the ones that send the information.  I was waiting for a disappointed expression on Rogers face but instead he seamed to escalate a smile. He wrote down an eight and did a circle around it and said. 

- Do you see this?

Yeh I did, but I didn´t know what it meant. An 8 is what you put up as your goal, to reach the results of thin and muscular, that is what an 8 stands for. 

- I can only congratulate, you have reached you goal in 3 months. 

• I´m now 12 years old  from 23 to 12 in three months
  
• I´ve lower my bodyfat 5.5 % 26.4-19.4
  
• lost weight from 68.6- 63.8
• My upper-body has the most significant result from 25.3  to 22.7 last month to 17 today

This shit works ! 

I am a crewmember at Greendragon

Ericsson was the first boat to leave Sandhamn in the morning and the first to sail into Stockholm at today’s' city sprint in the VolvoOceanRace. 

 

I got a position at the main grind at the Green Dragon. It was a challenging job but wonderful in many ways. Jus tot be on a monster of speed as these boats are, it gives you a rush and to be a part of maneuvering makes the adrenaline to pump through you veins.  

To go through the archipelago where I usually sail, goes by motorboat or ferry and now on a v70, what a morning. 

While at the Stockholm harbor and the race village there were a huge crowd greeting the boats coming in and when all of them were tied up a ceremony were held at the stage and then they the crew went off for a royal barbecue. 

breakfast on the maindock with ericsson crew

Me and another girl, mediacrew at ericsson, were the last ones left at the media center by 4 in the morning. We realized that we were to wait for another four hours to have breakfast and just the thought made me even more hungry. We decided to go to the hotel and try to get some bread. When we arrived at the dock there were a few staff from ericsosn standing next to the teamboats. 

As you can see we managed pretty well, the night manager at Seglarhotellet served us a delicious breakfast, that we enjoyed in the sunrise. 

Soon beginning my 19th hour

I made my self sponsored earlier today, when I realized that I will both look silly in my city jacket and I will be freezing. I was right, this jacket kept me warm and everyone on the dock regarded me as one of the Ericsson staff wich was good because then I could stay at their restricted area when others from media could not. 

First, it was amazing to be close up with the V70 boats on their match race into Sandhamn.  And what a thrilling race it was, puma in the lead, Ericsson3 catching up and then a problem with their sail occured and Puma caught the lead again, to finally win the leg. 

When Ericsson3 entered second they were celebrated as much as Puma and Ericsson4 were maby even more interesting around media as they by their third place won the whole VolvoOceanRace. 

second, here I sit on a bench without any food, waiting for the breakfast to start to be served at the hotel, because now I am really hungry and there is no way to get any food until then, that´s the glamorous life of a journalist. 

Lucky me I did remember to bring 2 herbalife power bars, one I had on the boat out here around 19 and the other around 01. 30. Without them I would be taking bites of the table by now. 

on the press-boat towards Sandhamn

The v.70 boats had been sailing with a high speed of 17-20. They were waited by tomorrow morning but will be at Sandhamn, the finish of  leg 9. The sun is rising and I am prepared for some cold hours at sea. Well, more prepared that I usually am. Me and Micke are having a bear and if I should say something about my back-packer theme this is it. A bear and on my way to adventure. Been out all day live broadcasting, the junior (sailing)cup and talked to the Ericsson race team shore mangers, those in the so called wet-team, that repair the boats during the stop over.  A full day and still it aint over. 

rubberboots and coffee

Almost 1000. I am to be at Puma barge in a few minutes. The racevillage are to open and I am having a coffee at the staff dining. What would life be without coffee, that is another factor that keeps life on track. It is going to be a long day. First at Puma and then broadcast radio. Well better get started. For now it is me and the whole security staff sitting here for coffee, so better get this day kicking. 

I love my new flowery rubber boots. They are going to make my day. i post a photo later on. 

McDonalds clears my head !

The head are about to explode, your body-temperature rises and you feel dizzy. You sit on the subway, the time is around 22, youths, bear and bottles, mobilephones playing out loud and you try to turn up the volume on your Ipod. One voice are received as a 1000 in your head. The whole world are spinning and you don’t know what to hold on to, neither what or who to reach out. There is a feeling of panic as you find yourself in a confused position.

At the stir-cases up to central station I felt an eager for Mc Donalds, when sitting there with my cheeseburger small fries and a coke I felt a common feeling. Whenever I´ve been out traveling and reach that point when you feel totally empty, or overloaded, and don’t know anything, then I always goes to a western place like Mc Donalds it calms me down and comforts me. I know that it might sound strange and I have never put it together until now when I did it again, but this time at home. To me it is amusing. Maybe it stands for regularity, continuality and I know what I am going to get.

Have to go for a meeting, then home take a bath and make some decisions, before I finish up some radio editing.

I don’t know if it is worth to dig deeper into the panic attacks or if it is just this that is the solution, to find a way to handle it. What surprises me is that it comes up now, ok I have tricky decisions to make, but I took a day off yesterday, chilled out at home until 19.15 when I went down to sickla shopping and bought supplies of make-up and some clothes then I cleared groceries (my status was one milk and a few berried in tee refrigerator) and bicycled home, had a shake and cleaned up my apartment watched an episode of Sopranos and fell asleep.

Cant get a hold of the logic.

Well, either way I have to go for my meeting 

The last day of preparations

My friend Teresa stopped by and I took her on a tour around the construction area, showing her where I will spend my time. Above is the Puma barge, a pretty cool construction but they had a late delivery and are a bit behind. 

- It takes you back to the houses in Tokyo that are built on water, said Teresa. I wouldn´t mind living like this. On the shore in the heart of the City. This is where the Puma dry team, those who deal with visitors,  are to be located. 

The Wet team, that are responsible for the boat, are located on the other side

 of the area closer to the bridge towards Slussen. This is the depot for the V70s´and today its full action, in containers like the one on the picture there are tools of different kind to repair the boats and make sure that there demands are being fulfilled and the boat are in great shape for the last leg towards St Petersburg in Russia. 

Before the day ended and we were soaked in rain Loogna did his first action report live at RadioVolvoOceanR

ace, and it worked ! 

Now I have to edit some radio reports and then it all starts at 1000 tomorrow morning. 50 thousand visitors a day is expected. It is going to be a party! 

Rain and Rain and Ra.....

Sitting in the container from where we will broadcast RadioVolvoOceanRace 91.9 listen on the web at http://www.skargardsradion.se/. 

It´s raining cats and dogs outside and I can tell that it is freezing. Teresa just arrived in summer-clothes and Matilda under a yellow umbrella. We are going for a coffee to warm up and then to the Puma- barge where I will be working when not being on the radio 

A day off

Watching the first episode of  The Sopranos, makes me think about panic attacks and their character. It seams to be so many factors within and the interesting thing is that they all bring out the same result. 

Today I am back in my own apartment, and believe it or not but the heat is on, I am not living in an igloo anymore. My posts in the stairway did make a difference. And that once again proof that if you want to bring about a change it always starts with your actions. It is comforting, because the power then is within you and your life is then not dependent on others to take action. Not at this stage, then of course it all is combined and one action taken by others might affect you but it is always you that decides how to deal with that. At the same time this can make you feel pressured and give you the thoughts that you are suppose to be perfect because you can. If we talk abut friends this might include to try to be there for everyone all the time: as a mother to both work and have quality time; in school that you have to be a top- student and at the same time popular among both girls and boys; when in profession you might know what you should do but you just cant because it seams like you already should have done it, that the train has left the platform. This is dangerous thoughts because they bring you down, instead you should start form where you are, leave the past and decide what you want to do, then make sure you work in that direction. Here is a word that I have hard to take in; you got to have faith in the process.  Is that to believe in or be convinced that you are doing right? And what is right we are back to the pressure of being perfect. What is perfect? Well once again there is only one person that have the answer and that is you. Once again we are standing or sitting there with our selves. It s a vicious circle and if we don’t get a hold of it then it keeps on spinning found us and we find our selves in the middle; dizzy, confused, scared and even maybe trapped, it awokens a feeling of panic. 

The WetTeam

Thord Lydstrand, logistic manager tells me about the wet-team 

By the dockside the barges are lining up. A huge crane are lifting a container in massive chains. A man directs the truck driver and when the container is in place I manage to catch him to ask what they are doing. 

-       We are building the depot for Ericsson and Telefonica Blue and Black on two big barges, this because it all shall to be close for audience to follow what´s going on, says Thord Lydstrand.

StockholmStopover is a challenges for the logistic managers when the usually lifts for the boats are not allowed due to its location in old town, it can´t handle the weight. 

If you ever been to, or watch a GrandPrix race you know how important the depot are for the crew in the race.  Thord is logistic manager and it is his responsibility that all containers traveling worldwide are ending up on the right place at the right time.

-       The people you see here is crew of the wet team. We are taking care of the boats while the dry team are meeting visitors face to face at the pavilions.

The man in the truck yells for Thord and one guy in Eriksson- clothes, sort of wetsuit, comes up to us from the barge. Time to direct container lifts. 

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Live broadcasting and Business cards

Last week I gave this thing of transforming into a role a lot of thoughts. Today I realized that there is only one thing that does it. And that is, to borrow a quota from a famous movie “ Wax on Wax off”.  Three days of 12 hours radio broadcasting and around 10 reports from the construction area at Skeppsbron, including interviews, has made me into a reporter. 

In the early morning when broadcasting live at the studio, giving the listeners the results of the 8^th leg in the race, Ericsson 4 finished first at 04.25 closed follow by Puma and GreenDragon. This gave Eriksson a third win and they are in the overall lead. On Sunday they sail towards Sandhamn and then awaits in-port race to Stockholm. Well, that was a sidetrack. Back to the studio where I were on my way to leave when a deliver came for me. I know this will sound silly but when opening the box and watched my very own business cards in black and white; whit my name on, titled as journalist, my mail and blog- address , a feeling most properly described as a rush through my body appeared. Now it is for real. It was two-sided, on one hand I felt happiness, a relief that I am on the right track and on the other hand I got scared it felt huge. I know that it actually is the smallest thing in the world, a natural thing and that I could, in theory, have done these even before I was a journalist but for me it is a sign post. 

 

Fort Knox

I entered fortknox ... it is a controlled chaos at Skeppsbron where the construction of what to become the VolvoOceanRace Stopover in a few days.  All seven  V70 boats in the competition has their own VIP building, because these  are no tents but two floor of show off. Overall its is very virtual, with high-technology equipment and huge screens that brings live broadcasting from the race. 

These VIP lounges is kind of the champagne version of the depot. 9 days is what the teams get to put them together, from containers to be up running. I met Martin who has been to all stopovers building for Ericsson. 

- We are an international crew where every one have their speciality and then we work together at the spot, he says. 
- There are two set of the same construction, otherwise the transport wouldn't manage, says Martin. There are also two teams. One crew that put it together and one to torn it apart and there are not a 9-5 job, here there is action from sun rise to sun set, says Martin. 

goooooood morning sunshine

Yippiiiii  ! A good nights sleep. Woke up and could step out of bed in underwear and bare feet what a happiness. 

Guitarr hero in the morning, who said that you actually need a guitar ? 

Action in the studio. Broadcasting at skärgårdsradion,  fixing the microphones for me and Ted for todays 12 hour race, oh yeah, the V70 boats are outside Denmark, soon to reach Marstrand. Yesterday I tried to get into VOR area at Skeppsbron it felt like trying to enter Fortknox, after a few phonecalls I have a pass and a date with the security staff. 

I´ll be back with a report from a rainy construction area during the afternoon. 

The escape

Oh my, it is a day of breaking records. 12 hours of broadcasting radio and when finally home it was freezing as in a cold wind meet you when you open the door. I´m convinced that the stairway is warmer. I had posted notes by the entrance and as I thought they were gone. My neighbor told me that the landlord were here today and that she did not turn on the heat but instead pulled away my notes from the board. And as my brother asked, "is it micaela cold which he mean that I do freeze most of the time, or is it cold. I can tell that it is cold; about 14 degrees said my neighbor excluded the wind, he put on three hoods and are still cold. I heard from him that the guy next door to him and them above have installed forms of electric heaters. 

I think that my back-packing feeling got a bit overwhelming, I had enough and fled to my parents place. It is such a relief to be sitting in the bed in a top and underwear and writing, not to be tense in my whole body. 

Didn´t hold the good spirit from the morning when it comes to "meal and sleep watch". or dependent on how you count I did have lunch but it was a pie. Had dinner I should, planned to grab a shake but I had forgotten to buy a juice to mix it down in, time flew and I ended up having a pizza. Good thing is though that I didn´t skip food, maybe learnt once more that I have to bring my juice from home in order to make sure that I got it, is in bed now and are almost managing the bed time. 

Well, time to enjoy a good nights sleep. 

An apple a day keeps the doctor away...

... and I add  Herbalife Thermocomplete so that has to be ultra good. It can be needed in my Igloo and fully booked  days. For the moment busy at the radio soon I will add my job at Puma lounge during the stopover at Skeppsbron, but this time in rush hours, compared to before I will really try to have my "meal and sleep watch" activated even in stressful times, as it actually is even more important to keep up with the schedule at these  times not to loose energy. 

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Live Broadcasting RadioVOR 91.9

Early morning, not my cup of tea but once up and in action it actually feels pretty good. Camilla just arrived with a breakfast sandwich to me, lovely, and Roger  I had my shake in the morning so this will be regarded as snack ; ), feels nice to have a hunger again.  

I´m on air with ted at 91.9 with Pre sale to VolvoOceanRace Stockholm stopover. There might be a risk that this is addictive ... 

Maryland cookies and coffee do not cure morning- depression

Woke up to late, again. Couldn’t get a hold of the day at first but I did catch up. After an hour of discussion with my self I finally went to the kitchen and made myself a shake.  And as before, it did, in combination with my Herbalife pills of multi-vitamin, omega3 and an herbal pill and of course rose ox to cure my cold. I also had a chat with my coach Roger and he told me to double the omega3 and so I did. I managed my blog and spoke to Ted at the radio giving me an up-dated on the phone: we are going live tomorrow morning at RadioVolvoOceanRace. 

Went jogging around five and passed the store on my way home picking up some low-lactose yogurt, firm in my decision to lower dairy products. Ok, I know the cookies are not in line with that but I decided to take it more seriously from now on because it really don’t do me good. Bought a flower to on my way home and then made some dinner, order business cards on the internet. Said to be free but I ended up paying 434 crowns… don’t really know how that happened (maybe because I had to pay an additional 235 crows to get them within 3 days instead of 14 days).

Ted came over and we started planning the broadcast up until the stopover begins. That is on Sunday. It will be fun, high lights from the race reports, up dates on the preparation and creation of race village at Skeppsbron and a lot more.

Late evening preparations in the Igloo (my freezing apartment) for tomorrows broadcasting, the first one live ever at the official Stockholm Stopover radio station 91.9 tune in from 07.00 tomorrow morning. 

We created our own virtual V70 boat that for the moment sails towards Marstrand. Present ranking is 215613, 

Online now	20205
Online last 24 hours	69531
Registered players	216525
Groups	5963

Check it out it is fun ! 

http://www.volvooceanracegame.org/home.php

When looking for another note I found my schedule. And to be true I haven’t been that bad, it is jus that I have shifted the hours around. As for today I slept on my first working shift, managed my blog and ordered business cards on the second and planned RadioVOR on the third. Had a shake and dinner. Well I left out a meal and 2 snacks… you can’t get them all. I do like my new life style; I like to at least have a schedule to strive to follow even though it is so much easier to put together a schedule than to keep up with it.

Time for ice princess to go to bed.

Listen on RadioVolvoOceanRace 91.9 tomorrow morning I be there from 07.00 

and find more information at http://www.oceanracestockholm.se/nyheter/visa/stockholm-stopover-far-egen-radio 

Sthlm in sunset

Five hours in the studio, on out way home in the car this amazing view appeared and I did as I would have done as a backpacker. Stopped the car, went out and had a photo. Strange but a small thing like that do make me feel alive.  

My apartment is still an igloo and when letting my landlord know I got the answer that I should put on some more cloths and that is only heating season up until may 15. How do you argue that !  

It is sunday and as you notice I have turned the hours around, not done any exercise since monday and have not been following my "skalman-model". My stomach is a bit upset and my but in general do not play with the cold. I haven´t got a hold of the day, something i might need to try to take control of again, but it is this way when it is not clear what is going to be with what. I will try to regain some control of it though. I also hope for some warmer weather but I can't let that rule me, so tomorrow I will go swimming then I can have a hot sauna afterwards and that would be nice. Now awaits a cold bed ... 

Pep-talk

Hi Micaela,
Will be sending you some great success stories every week so you may keep your motivation up because they have all been doing the same as you are going to do http://www.startherbalife.com/ecm/success/success.jsp?category=weight_mgmt&pageId=1147217715455:en_US

HugsRoger

Live broadcasting : )

Ok, I have to confess, I was a bit nerveus before going out live, but once I got a hold of it I really enjoy it. Me and Ted a sunday evening. I totally burried my self in information of baloons. Had no idea that it was tat big of an industry. Weddingcouples in baloons, well I dont know but check it out, it is pretty amazing. I especially like the baloon magic.
http://www.conwinonline.com/design_projects/lm_bride_groom.asp

Calle Söderberg at Promarina was my guest in the show "Min Skärgård". Yesterday they opened the guest marina below the royal castle that will be there throughout the Volvo Ocean Race Stopover.http://www.volvooceanrace.org/

http://www.oceanracestockholm.se/stockholm-stopover/

And Yes grandpa, I have given my vote in the European election, check !

National day celebration

25 000 Balloons were released at Skeppsbron. To see more go to http://www.kultur.stockholm.se/default.asp?id=22733

This is the area now in construction for Volvo Ocena Race Stopover the 14th-26th. Of course me and Ted did some reports, you can hear them tomorrow when we go live at 18.00 in Skärgårdsradion 90.2 http://skargardsradion.se/

Carolina met up and we had a nice view of stockholm from the boat. It was cold though, around 9 degrees. Not a summer weather but today I were prepared.

On our way from the studio suddenly we couldn' t get any further with the car. They had blocked one way at Strandvägen due to a royal cortege from the castle towards Skansen. People actually left their cars and went out to see what was going on, that is how still we stood.

Back in my Igloo, have to do something about it tomorrow now it really is freezing.

BTW Sweden lost in soccer to Denmark... well it was fair but not pleasant to watch and probably a bit of a partykiller.