It is a challenge,

Ok, I could either feel like a looser, like someone that has failed or I could regard it all as I process that I am preveliged to be in. I am making conscious choices every day for my own benefit. And as everything that is in progress you will have better and worse days as well as decisions. I said to a friend of mine that when the day comes htat I finish up my life style book I am reading I will have this figured out, and then I will make a major decision based on this time of trial and error.

This is just an excuse you might think, and well it might appear so but I can asure you that measurements and that scale Roger, my herbalifecoach has, it is not lying so in the end it will all show.

So where are the big struggle now. I have left the philosophical level for a moment and focus on health in  a more basic way, as nutrition, water and sleep. This is the basic, without gas the car wont go forward. The question is what sort of gas I should put in and how firm I have to be in my choices, I know I have been talking about this before but it is harder than what one can think because it demands a change in you every day life; a limit and an opportunity at the same time.

I did quit alcohol, what about change food, that’s where I am now. Most of the time this is a change that has to take place in your brain, your controlcenter.

And in line with my life over all this is where I am trying to master the mind, to decide what program I want to run and how and then take control of it.

It is a challenge,

So yes to confess: I had a burger the other night on the boat on my way out to Sandhamn, and yes I have been eating buns and other un healthy cakes as well as stew based on cream and bread with cheese; not taken my herbal pills for my syomach as I should early in the morning but instead around 11 and eaten after taking my evening herbal pills, stayed up late and also woke up early in the morning. Haven´t been doing any training but I am now on my way for a powerwalk with weights around Sandhamn. I had a shake the other morning at 8.30 but no more food until 1800 which is no good.  It is hard being out here knowing you are going to be back in town in a few weeks, where you don’t know how you will solve your economy, and to get a routine. I will therefore have this last week out here to process my decisions and be firm in them in order to implement them. They are to be non affected by outer circumstances as travel or working away from home, but I am not there yet.